Feel it in my Bones by DJ Tiesto featuring Tegan and Sara
Association 1:
I take my heart out of my chest
I just don't need it anymore
Take my head out of the game
I just don't need it anymore
Most people don't know this but for most of fifth grade I was very sick. Malnutrition, strep, God-knows-what, and a new disease. I honestly don't remember much about it besides sitting on the couch, but now in my memory it just feels like a day. Every day was the same: I would force myself to eat, my mom would read to me while I lay on the couch, and I would sleep. I didn't feel angry or sad or depressed, I didn't feel anything. My mind, overwhelmed, had simply shut down. Apathy ruled my world for longer than I care to remember. I eventually recovered, though it was a very slow process, and these lines remind me of the feeling of apathy I had and how it's worse than pain.
Association 2:
Blow by blow
I didn't see it coming
Blow by blow
Sucker Punched
I missed a lot of school while sick and was unused to the high school life. Middle school was extremly easy, I was able to do all my work at school without really thinking about it, and actually having to study for tests was something new to me. Also, the math was challenging and I had to actually take notes and sometimes even read the book. All these new things coupled by my bad study habits from missing school really hit me hard my freshmen year. My grades plummeted fast and I really had no idea how to deal with grades below a B. I attempted the same meathod that worked when I was sick: wait it out. This, of course, didn't work and ripples of that first blow freshmen year are still affecting my school life today.
Association 3:
I feel you in my bones
You're knocking at my windows
You're slow to letting me go
And I know this feeling also
This feeling in my bones
My health is still very shakey. I get sick often, and small two or three day things and minor viruses hit me a lot harder than they do other people. Sometimes it takes me three weeks to recover from a simple cold and during those weeks I could be missing a day or two of school because the symptoms are so potent. I recognize when I'm getting sick and it feels like a dementor slowly creeping up on me. It's a feeling that I've learned to deal with but before it was really hard when I would get sick.
Holy cow, I just realized that this is really doom and gloomy. Seriously, it wasn't that bad, it sounds a lot worse than it actually was. Also, I really like this song even though it perfectly ties into all this illness crap. And it's not like I feel sad every time I listen to this song, I usually dance and sing along happily. It's a good song. You should listen to it right now.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Wacky Friday: Secluded School Adventures
Whilst musing about where exactly to go since everyone in my group had been almost everywhere we stumbled upon an open door that we had never seen open before. We followed the pink welcome sign into what looked like an obscure basement hallway into the new copy center. Cement and ductwork were the only decorations and a whole forest of paper lined metal shelves. Dust hung in the sparse light as we wandered through this new room. A few teachers were in there making copies and they quickly shooed us out. This, I thought, contradicted the hot pink welcome sign quite fantasticly.
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